Happy New Year!!!!!!!! Today is the first day of 2010 and I’m finally realizing one of my dreams, to create my very own blog. I’m really happy to realize that wordpress is not blocked in China, and I find it very stimulating to start my year by doing one of the things I love the most, writing.
As I look back at all the things that happened to me last year, I recognize I was very pessimistic and I wasn’t happy at all with my year, yes I finally graduated and got my bachelors in Contemporary Chinese (yay me!). I visited Mongolia, which is not at all my favorite countries in the world, but it was a very growing experience, it pushed me out of my expat bubble in Beijing, it made me be thankful for the things I have here and made me miss Beijing which I never thought I’d do. I had an amazing internship at the beginning of the year and it’s been so far one of the most rewarding and learning working opportunities I’ve had. I met very good people during this year, real good friends that came to stay forever in my life. I met my countryside boy and that’s one of the most beautiful things that happened during the year.
I did have some really hard times, the hardest in the last couple of years, I was unemployed and broke 90% of the year. I didn’t succeed on my relationship with someone I thought would choose me, but that led to me meeting my countryside so it wasn’t all bad news. I was very lonely and unhappy even when surrounded by people. For some mysterious reason all the important people in my life, stayed right next to me, supported me and loved me with all their hearts and they showed me how much they cared about me even on the gloomiest days. All in all I think the economic crisis was the thing that affected me the most and I would like to apologize to all the loving people in my life for being such a train wreck, for hurting them and for giving them for granted.
In this new year, I’m full of new energies and plans, I got a day job which is a great boost to my finances, it’ll keep me busy, it’ll allow me to support myself on my own for the very first time since graduating. It will keep me from making people crazy with my mood swings. During this year I’m also very hopeful to see two of my best friends coming back to Beijing, after years and months without seen them, I’m looking forward to all our endless chats, to our shopping sprees, to our crazy girls night out, to listen to their street wisdom. During this year I’m also planning on improving my language knowledge, keep practising my Chinese and hopefully improving my almost forgotten French.
And one of the dearest things I wish to accomplish in this year, is to enjoy once and for all the amazing relationship I have with my countryside, to enjoy the simple moments we have because we never know when they’ll finish, to make him as happy as he’ s made me since I met him. If possible I’d like to move forward on our relationship, but in any case I’m happy just being with him and letting life unfold itself a day at a time.
For my own personal growth, I would like to finish reading the Bible (which I just started reading for the first time in my life), I like to keep writing and hopefully touching people’s life while doing it. I would like to find my lost faith. I would like to improve myself in every possible way while staying true to myself.
And last but no least, as I say on my “About me'” page, I want to “BREAK MY RULES” and be happy 🙂
Happy New Year to you all and I wish you the happiest moments in life!